Went to the "Xiao Gui Xiang - Guiyang Community Service" Interview this morning... Won;t know the results till they send email bah..
Today is kinnda of an important day. It's my club's SPAC2GO's AGM (Annual General Meeting), results of nominations of new committee.

wow.. was kinnda surprise with the results... I kenna the Vice President post.. i tot i would be IT sec. bah since i was doin da cLub's webby...
Anyway, the person i choose to be the President was a BINGO. my my.. gonna be a bZ year ahead...... with more responsiblities, ideas and life.

Meet Stace at Bugis to do TBCM interview questions.. we will be presenting next tUes..
tHen went to SimLim sQ to buy 50 pieces of CD-R and i bought a TDK Cyclone CD-R/CD-R Writer 48X16X48 at $209. wanted to buy the smaller Iomega at $218, but its warrenty is online and speed is slower @ 40X24X40... only a few store hab it.. others stock out.

Back home, i fixed da cd-rw.. and tested it.. It uses Nero Express software... kinnda laggy software.. but still usable.. bUt i dun seem to be able to change itz writing speed...
it still writes at 4X only... which is a very weird thing...
Maybe i;m using USB 1.0 while this TDK can support USB 2.0 ... alamak.. but it ok... penGz..

penGz penGz penGz... Suddenly so many big stuff happening.. hohoho..

.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:35 PM:.
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eh... was too engross in fixing the pictures for MMAS tat i forgot to blog when i wanted too... penGz...
oh.. it was hIs bday today.. dunno when to give him the present so kept and kept till the last min, when i gonna head home, i juz pop pass and pass it to him.
Happy bdaY once more.

ahGghz.. it really takes you HOURS and HOURS juz to do a screen for MMAS. i STILL hab NOT started on any of sub topics.. die liao.. hab to buck up if the pictures dun give me so much prob and DIRECTOR itself dun be so buggy, everything kenna error and close by itself = i hav to re-do again...

think tats life bah..
everyone's talking abt the SARS? and WAR... alamak.. seems like gonna "Shi Jie Mo Ri" liao...
Hope Not.

.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:56 PM:.
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dunno why having frequent headaches these days... juz ate 2 panadoL...

sux. down on my luck? got a rubbish computer or cd or wat-so-ever. have to re-install win2k 3 times before it successfully boot into Win2k to show me the setup. by the time i'm done with installing itz 4.45pm.. sux. I dun understand y it juz dun allow me to enter BIOS to change Boot priority..
and it juz cannot locate Boot.ini till the last min... aRghz...

maybe i sux. daMn. i;m so close to completing setting up the IP and DNS settings. Time's Up. Invigilator switched off my monitor.
T__T" That marks the end of my PCT module.. there goes the A's or B's... *shakes head...* maybe i juz sux in such stuff....

Interview was so-so... got 2 questions wrong. well.... i dunno liao... i juz pray hard i can still fare.. at least for this module.. or the rest...

"All I need.. Is just another Reason.. To turn back time.. And Nothing matters more then another CHANCE."

.:Jean Lee blogged on 9:41 PM:.
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Its Lester C. bday today... Happy bday~ realise like a lot of pple March babies..
aRghz.. habin probs with my dir...
keep havin fatal errors and auto shut downs..
hiakz.. buGGy as can be,,,

now hab to focus on work.. and nothing else. Hopefully.

.:Jean Lee blogged on 10:59 PM:.
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juz showered..... itz JADE's bDay todaY~ HaPPy BdaY JadE~ 21 liao wor...
juz came home, after celebratin Jade's bday at BBoss nearby PS there.
we celebrated on Sat 22/03/03, one day earlier coz On sun 23/03/03 her actual bday most of us cannot make it...
Sunday's usually the family or rEst day...

Had a terrible migraine all day... heads like swollen up.. most prob due to lack of sleep.
juz took medicine.. so now better..

Anyway... so happy to see all my sec sch frens once more~ The HaI family gang..
we ate for 1 hr, and talk for 2 hrs! tats why so late then come back...

Finally can pour my heart out to 2 of my frenz.. i noe they will understand.. especially Jade.
Something's are juz better to talk to someone who you dun see often but still know each other.

Feeling better now, and know wat i;m going to do.
I'm leavin` it to fate.


.:Jean Lee blogged on 1:57 AM:.
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strange... how weird and fated things seemed to happen...

suddenly everyone brought up a lot of past issues...
first it was mum, then today it was one of the lecturers...
hiakz... why suddenly this topic?
feelin` blue once more...
speakin abt it once more.. i can't control but shiver and hold on..
would hab broken down if not for stace consolin me...
i'm a sad and confused soul once more...

.:Jean Lee blogged on 8:45 PM:.
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@___@"" un-tahantable liao.... soOOooo freakin tired....
days lack of sleep.. finally done with an outline Main Menu and the MMPJ ProposaL...
strugglin' with PCT.. left questions here and there and Chapter 8... X__X""
now i wonder if i hab the energy for 2000 words of TBCM manual..

funny thing happened yesterday. went to buy fren's present with my sis too, then met up with mum to buy gorceries at NTUC JP.
she was kinda late, so by da time we were done with the NTUC, we were hungry, so decided to juz go to the Kopitiam at 3rd level to makan dinner.
i ate my fav. Claypot chicken rice, my mum too. sis ate curry chicken her fav there. not bad too. after "main course" sis wanna eat dessert so she go buy...
then suddenly, my mum ask me a question which gave me a shock.

"So your boyfriend gave you the phone then no more news liao ah?"
DUHZ.
I was like how come suddenly talk abt him?
She never ask me anything after that very day i talk her abt both of us. got a shock.
"Why you suddenly ask? I thought you say don't be serious, just go for what causal friends?"
"I just want to know, you never say anything after that..."
"That time see your face.. so serious, somemore tell me what, just have casual relationship can liao.. who will dare to tell you more..."
*pause* sis is back, she heard it too..
"Yar lor, mummy ah.. that time see your face also scare liao, like bu zhan chen like tat.."
"That time i was just saying you shld'nt just stick dead to one just like that, so just causal can liao, dun serious till you stick to only one..."
"That time your face does'nt say that."
*speechless*

hiakz... suddenly my mum shot me with these questions, it really shot thru' my heart.
i'm stumped with slient answers.

I;m havin` a headache.. lack of sleep? fatigue? ah... guess i'll turn in early...




.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:43 PM:.
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It been days since i updated my blog... cOz i really tied down.. with weights.. so heavy..
Main Menu prototype by THURS, MMPJ Prop and FYP Prop by FRI, PCT Lab worksheets by SAT, TBCM User manual by MON.
Who will not be going M.A.D?

these days i have been thinkin abt lots of stuff.. now then i realise wat a loner i hab been, VEFX alone in another class, PCT alone in another class, CCA also alone.. from ICT.. even relationships.. here it goes again. no wonder i hab mood swings so often.
FYP juz dun seem to cease giving me problems... It didn't start well in the first place, and it somehow didn't end well..
pple keep targeting at my grp... now pple think i'm some push over, that i despite pple.. GOD, wat hab i done to deserve all this? i'm trying to be fair, i Respect pple, so i need pple to Respect ME. i respect their decisions and give them all the best. yet, itz still some backstab hurting words at the back that cause all the tension once more.. so much for being helpful. Then it comes to light that we face competition on the external project proposal. *daMn* juz hab to wait for results in May.
Can't believe even my mother didn't think i'm the innocent party. Am i really holdin` the arrogant tone, demanding all that i want, stubborn and all sux up? I hope i'm not... coz deep down in me, i'm just weepin' my hearts out, dunnoe who to ask, who to talk, who to think of. New age sensative woman. Yet no one believes.

I'm so tired... but i hab to move on.. sometimes walking alone you tend to think a lot of things..
Tell me, tell me how to live a life better.




.:Jean Lee blogged on 2:51 PM:.
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ah... feel better today.. lifes goes on~

nothing much, only met stace n lene at sch today 2 discuss abt MMPJ then went with stace and Geargina go Lido watch Maid In Manhatten...
nIce show, i give its 4 out of 5 stars man.. typical storyline but, the words they use, humor, not bad.. music too`

then met up with mum bought a Nokia 3310 for my dad, cost price $171 + warranty. for dad, itz da simple da better.
they we proceeded to meet my aunt at Bukit Panjang then went to Changi the Da Bo Gong temple to bai bai...

ah.. juz came back from hougang after sendin my aUnt home... bery humid now.. gotta go shower sooN!




.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:09 PM:.
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i;m feeling so damn low.. lifeless.. bad temper... moody..
life sux now.

yeah.. it true how you just can't out talk some hyprocites out there...
chances is always given out to those who talk BS big time and and juz hardcore Proud ASSes..
hiakz.. i lost my only chance to go to the MILE program just like tat.
There goes a broken promise.

why do humans hold strong feelings?
Opposites attract.. ya-da ya-da..
i'm in a mess... why do i stiLL hold feelings?
damn.

It WAS suppose to be a nice day.. scored in TBCM, but sux to core after the miyazaki meeting..
Politics again....

hiakz.. this seems to be the year where i'm frequently backstabbed and outshot...
I;m trying not to lose control...
I really am.

.:Jean Lee blogged on 10:57 PM:.
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YeaH~ finally done with Day 3 of testssss.. can surviv MMPJ i guess..

anyway, after the Mid-terM tests, itz nOw all the Assignments and Projects!!
ah.. itz a never ending journey....

Then will finally come to EXAMS... hohoho....
Mid-March liao... April coming...

.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:25 PM:.
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phew... done with day 2 of tesTtsss and i PASS PCT!!

pheww...... after some quiz prac... at least pass the PCT quiz.. next to be chiONg is the Practical Test of PCT..
hope to hab more practice on the partitioning and swapping of Floppy drives and Troubleshooting next practical!

ah.. tml MMPJ.. think how to survive Microsoft Projects and PM roles liao..
hohoho... MMPJ...

i'll Pass too... and agaiN.. hope with gd gd Results lah.. pengz`

.:Jean Lee blogged on 9:58 PM:.
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ah.. Day 1 of tEstssss and itz MMAS!

dunno why i more into director compared to Flash last time.. can do things in director better, maybe i juz Flash idiot.
but still, i dunno how to do the Movie Script Part. ah.. blame me for not studying hard enuff... hoho.. coz all head think how to survive PCT tml..
hohoho.. PCT...

I;ll pass. But i hope to pass with Gd results lah.. tata`

.:Jean Lee blogged on 8:47 PM:.
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these days w/o a dog seem so weird.. juz, sooo weird.

yesterday was my youngest sis bday. gave her a 'furry' pink wallet as she has lost hers. think this year she receive the most presents.
1 wallet, 2 bags, 1 radiocontrolled car, 1 barbie, 1 Giant Jokebook... i could'nt remember...
of cOz bday DuRiaN cake.

today somemore blated celebration from dad to sis. went to JP's Crystal Jade La Mian and Xiao Long Bao Resturant.
The food is not bad, esp. the Fried noodle and Fried Rice.. BUT a bit expensive.. ESP the Apple jUice.. coSt $4 man!

Tml's the MMAS prac test. This Afternoon jUz finished the remaining lessons 16-18. Hope i will score tml~
ah.. hab to do sOme PCT liao.. i sUx in it man..

.:Jean Lee blogged on 8:52 PM:.
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guess wat, get to keep my dog for one more day! but he;s gonna go tml.. hiakz... itz ok..

ah.. need more inspiratiOn for my MUMI!! gotta do tangO piece let TimTeo listen became Cha-Cha.. *PenGz*
INspiratION! Come to mE!!

x__X the med is takin effect all day.. i'm 'soft n squasy' half awake... brains like processing 16Ram... hmm...

.:Jean Lee blogged on 10:52 PM:.
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Back! i:m back!!! nice to be back home, yET.....

ah.. first thing was not home, instead it's straight to the clinic nearby my home for checkup... Got rashes before the camp, so sway, tat time found out was too late to go see docs, so wait until now... *alamak* itz a ex[pose] allergy.. dunno cause by wat, expose to some stuff and itz spreading, serious till.. the dOcs gave me a JAB. my god, first time u arrive back in SG is an INJECTION. *pengz* he say cream useless.. jab + 1 itch med + 1 atamine also flu one.. *bUt i no flu lah.. doc say muz go with this med.
gosh.. guess i'll be drowsy these days.... *itCh*

Second thing even shockin, mum suddenly say my uncle found someone to 'adopt' my dog. AND, will be coming tml to collect it... i dunno the status of this family, but at least, There IS a Family. hiakz... shock.. yet.. there;s nothing much i can do but to say the last goodbyes to my dog + a last bone.. T__T"
It's been 2 years and this year will mark itz 6th bday. hiakz... Say goodbye to 'Ah-Boy'. May you have a better environment.




Things aside, Camp was great. Learnt to be more positive about many things. Will share it with pplz out there reading this blOg over da days.. now i;m freakin' tired and itchIn and achin'
Settle some webstuff juz now and browse thru' some blogz.. hm.. seems to be something big happening. Watever it was, Don't Give up even though the road is rough and everything seems to be in despair. A little hope can mean so much which will bloom to all sorts of miracles... No matter wat, stay in a lighter heart, worry less, think more positive, then everything will seem better.

.:Jean Lee blogged on 11:17 PM:.
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seems to been a long week... a VERY long week... lookin thru' so many downs.. tat i;m startin to reflect on life...

many pple said i need to manage my time.. i dun get it.. no matter how hard i tried, they would still say you have to manage your time.
Wat abt all the schedules i have done? Wat abt all the reminders i have made? Wat abt all the changes, restrictions, arrangements i have done?
Talk about managing time.

i dun get it.. pple r gettin more n more sophisicated and 'selfish' these days...
Wat you treat as serious business becomes nothing to them..
With a Serious attitude, they think itz a joke.. or they give me the impression of "itz nothing, You're juz makin a fuSS out of nothing"
juz my side. my thoughts.
Talk about being serious and sensative.

All the stress for da week is so much, i'm losin' on my sleep and my creative juices..
i had to get back on track.

Yet, there's something in me thinkin and ponderin.. i need re-assurance.. it might.. it can't be... feeling so [M]ixED.

Today is still a Sat. i wrote this post late. Tml i will be sailing off for a Leadership Camp.
Hope to do some reflections there.
Watever pple think, This is Me.



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